Everyone else so perfect,
Suffering and hate, dazing me,
I want to escape,
Let me be free!
I need to run!
I need to hide!
Leave me alone!
Let me decide!
I need to scream!
I need to shout!
I need to let my anger out…
Homeless
I sit here strayed, all alone,
Only memories of having a home,
A coat is all to comfort me,
I huddle alone, beneath this tree.
Nowhere to stay, I need to hide,
All my fears bunched up inside,
The sun is shining but it rains on me,
At least now, my decisions are free.
But what is there that I can decide?
Where to run, where to hide?
If they spy me they will take me back,
To the home, I now lack.
But why did I go, why did I leave?
The rows, the fighting, I did truly believe,
I'd be better off on my own,
But only now do I know,
I'm all alone. . .
The cold, hard hit of betrayal,
Stolen away, the happy days,
Time flies past me,
The world now a tear-filled haze.
Arrogance, conceit, insensitivity,
Selfish behaviour, what does it achieve?
The perfect world crowding in,
Suffocating, I cannot breathe.
Save me from the temptation,
Help me live my life,
Change me, shape me,
Make me normal, free from strife.
I wear the smile,
I show the grin,
Yet the pain,
Creeps slowly in…
Force open my eyes,
Another day of pain,
Climb out of bed,
Play the charade again.
Stumble to school,
Put on the smile,
Keep faking it,
If only for a while.
Like a puppet,
Do as I'm told,
Tears escaping, even so,
The act growing old.
Complete the work,
To home I walk,
Those beady eyes,
Watching like a hawk.
My world so suffocated,
Everything they follow,
Making sure I copy them,
Into depression, I now wallow.
My toothless grin a-smiling,
As dawn danced on the hills,
My heart pounding ever quicker,
Full of excitement and thrills.
A warm blush of happiness,
Shining from within me,
I played with my teddy bear,
And let my imagination free.
