I Hate Life When...

When you have no choice
But to lie –
Especially to your friends
And family.


When people cannot accept you
For who you really are,
And you have to continue the act
Just for them.


When your darkest secrets
Are discovered by your friends --
The ones you never wanted to know about it
In the first place.


When you think someone loves you,
Then they go and let you down.
Again.


When people think
They know best for you,
When all you want to do
Is follow your heart.


When someone acts
Like your friend,
Like they really care about you,
Then the next day
They go and bitch about you
Behind your back.


When two people,
Who both like each other,
Won’t go out with each other.


When the person you care for most
Will never know.


When your family,
Your own flesh and blood,
Turn against you.
Maybe water is thicker than blood?


When people make judgements
On your appearance
Instead of on the way you act.


When others cannot,
And do not,
Listen to your opinions
And simply think that your views
Do not matter.


When you have to learn to smile
When people expect it.


When someone stops loving you
And they tell you
It is because they have moved on.
When really you are not pretty enough
For them.


When you have to hurt yourself
So others cannot.


When you spill your heart
Trying in vain to make someone understand,
When they never will.


When people ask you
Why you are upset,
And you tell them.
Then they call you an attention seeker.


When people label you.


When you are in pain,
And no one knows.
And if they do know,
They don’t care.


When it only hurts
When you breathe.


When you realise
That if you were to take a gun,
Place it against your head,
And pull the trigger,
No one would ever notice.


When you think someone
Has broken your heart.
Then you realise that they couldn’t have
Because it was never full
In the first place.
When you want to cry
But the tears won’t come.


When all your life you’ve hoped,
And dreamed,
Of one thing.
Then you grow up and realise that
Wishes don’t come true.


When you try to forget the past.
And then you look down
And see your scars.
Then you are reminded of it again.


When you’re in a crowded room
Full of people
And you’re still alone.


When you are the closest thing
To perfect
But the furthest thing
From it.


When you are trapped
In that thing
Called life.


When you don’t eat for days
In a useless hope to be beautiful.
And no one is concerned.


When it takes more courage to suffer
Than to die.
But you have no courage.


When you are ripped open
Torn apart
And still
No one will take you.


When someone has wrecked your life
And you know you should hate them –
And you try to –
But you just keep loving them.


When you aren’t afraid of
Happy endings,
But you’re too scared
That your life will not turn out like that.


When you feel so numb
That you have to breathe
Just to know you are alive.


When you realise
That you will always be
A falling star.


When you bother to put
Eyeliner and
Mascara on,
Only to understand that
You will cry it off anyway.


When you trust someone
And give them your heart,
Only for them to shatter it
Right in front of
Your eyes.


When life gets you down,
But you're too afraid,
[Or too brave]
To show it.